Lost

I pride myself on my organizational skills. My ability to keep things in a certain order. Neat, Tidy, Clean and on time. People often compare this to a touch of OCD. I become anxious and grumpy when things are out of order, out of routine or dirty. I openly admit this.
When I first went back to work...full time...at the start of April it was very stressful. After a month or so I was able to get into a routine. The kids were released from school for the summer making it a bit easier to get out the door. Josh was home with them making it less of a worry about their well being (not his) and I began to enjoy it. The end of August hit. The kids went back to school and Josh went back to work. All very good things. But. The kids are in two different schools, I am still working 6 days a week and Josh is gone 12 hours a day 5 days a week. With his days off being right in the middle of the week. This leaves me to get them up and out the door every morning. Get myself out the door. I need to run any errands that I can on my way into work. Keep up with their homework. What is due and when. School functions, when and where. Lost items, school supplies, due dates of book reports and test days. Getting home in time to get all of this done, feed them, the dogs, the cat, get them showered, stories read and in bed no later than 8:30. In addition to that I need to do some cleaning each night in order to keep up with all the dirt. dust and dog hair. The cat keeps bringing in and killing mice leaving blood smeared on the walls. Keeping up with all the things at work. The events, weddings, paperwork, billing and Dr. G and all of his needs and demands.
In the last week: I have gotten Lauren ready for a Fairy Tale ball a day to early, forgotten to buy the groceries necessary to pack their lunches, a few small promises, and Lauren's homework. She has a birthday party to go to tomorrow that I will rush home from work to get her to on time...but I forgot to get the kid a gift. I will try to remember to get that on my way home. I haven't had the time to plan her own birthday party that she will not get now. I have forgotten to mail the anniversary card that needs to go out.
I was the only mom not at the Fairy Tale ball.
I am going to lose my mind. I would carry a planner to keep track of everything but I would forget to use it.
I need a vacation. But then I would really be behind.